It is 2 in the morning.
I am lying awake in bed.
and all i can ask myself is...
What am I doing?
All the restlessness and anxiety of being unemployed and in Toronto has finally built up into wednesday, December 23rd at 2:13am ET.
I have some questions at the moment too, like... is it just me? who is constantly thinking second guessing myself?
is it my generation?
Is that the weight of opportunity? that you always feel as though you have not lived up to what you could be/should be doing?
I need to travel.
Why aren't I in south America?
Why aren't I on an Adventure?
If i am not out there now... who is to say i will ever be?
what time is better than NOW????
Lately ( tonight) I have been imagining possibilities... talents and drives in your life to resemble fading stars. When you are born, everything shines brightly... as you grow, your parents make decisions which focus some stars and allow other to dim. You are then left to make your own choices...
You Focus. collecting all the stars in a certain area and trying to make them shine the brightest.
Which allows some of your possible paths to dim and fade till they are gone.
What am I allowing to dim? what is already gone? Am i holding onto paths which were never that bright to begin with?
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